It's five o'clock in the morning & my eyes are still wide open.

I really had no intentions to write something at this moment. Maybe because Im happy? Nah, happy people have a lot of things to say. I got this freaking mixed feelings tonight. Too much coffee, i think. But yeah, I think I just needed something to blurt this feeling out.


I hope I'll make sense this time. If not, I'd still publish this. Yay for the shiz.


"How are you?"
Answering a question like this requires a lot of reflection and honesty. That is why a lot of people would mostly answer, "I'm fine". Not because they want to lie, but maybe because they themselves hadn't found the answer to the question. That is what I hate about people. They lie to hide their stupidity. They lie just so they have something good to say.


And why the hell am I talking deep about a very common phrase? I don't know either. :)) HAHA.


ARRRGH. My mind won't speak. And my heart won't tell. AND IM SO EMO, WTF. =))












'Kay fine. Let's do this.


2010 is freaking weird.


I decided to enter a new world. I was on a place where I knew no one, and I had to do things on my own. I decided to do this so I would taste a different life. A life far from what I was used to. Far from the overprotectiveness of many people. Far from the people that I used to love. And most importantly, far from that man who broke my heart into a million pieces. At first, I was praying that God would renew me and free me from the bondage of the past. And that He would let me live and experience many new people and many exciting things. And He  did. God granted me my prayers. Little did I know that He still has something in store for me. I met these awesome ladies who helped me find my lost pieces. I met people who teached me things that are new to me. And I met another man that, again, broke my heart into a million tiny pieces. My heart's not ready to narrate the whole story now. I was deeply hurt, that even the word "pain" is not enough to describe how I felt. I needed a lot of metaphors to describe it. OA as it may appear, but my heart is crushed every freaking blank moment that gives me a memory of him and his face. I was not angry at him. I love him. It maybe too soon to say that, but I am confident and sure. But that's it. There came a time when I was so mad at myself for being too irresponsible. I blame myself for the little decisions that I carelessly made that drew myself in this intense grief. I had a lot of what-ifs and if-onlys. Then I realized that none of them can pull me out of this situation. And I have to be strong. Stand still. And not make my friends worry about me.


Today, I am happy. I am breathing properly now. My heart's at stable condition. I want the world to know that I am starting to free myself from the jerk's spell. Christmas vacation totally helped me in dealing with this. In just a matter of hours, the Earth will revolve after 365.25 days, and it is also a perfect time for me to grow up and be more firm this time. I learned that pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice.


I'm still not that completely okay. But time heals all wounds. I have never been mad at anybody, and forgiveness is all over me. Haha!


Others change.
I also have to.




Goodnight.

4AM Shiz.

Ayokong i-publish yung iba kong nabuong posts.

Masyadong hubad ang mga salita, nakakatakot ang mga letra. Baka kapag hindi ko napigilan, ako pa magmukhang kawawa. Pero sige, para masaya, ipu-publish ko. Pero, saka na. Ie-edit ko muna ng kaunti.

May bagong fliptop videos.

At na-aadik na ko sa Tasty Planet.

Oh crap, Im being a bummer again.

Ktnxbai.

Bum days.

Sleeps at 4am.

Wakes up at 1pm.

Read. Eat. Read. Eat.

Sarap buhay ah! =))

Happiness

I love you, UPLB ComArts Soc! <3

.. and the ranting goes on.

Hindi ko hindi sinabi. Tinago ko lang.

Bakit ko ba tinago?

Hindi dahil gusto ko lang magpa cute.

Tinago ko lahat.. Para sa'yo.

Kasi gusto kong maging masaya ka.

Sabi ni Quickmelt, "do not cause him even the slightest grief".

Ayokong ma-burden ka dahil sakin. Gusto kong gawin mo yung mga bagay na sa tingin mo ay magpapasaya sa'yo. Dahil kuntento na kong malaman at makita na masaya ka. Kung hindi mo naitatanong, gustong gusto ko yung ngiti mo. Ayokong mawala yung mga ngiti na yan sa'yo dahil lang sa'kin. Importante sakin yung mga bagay na makakapagpasaya sa'yo. Kung sila yun, edi cool. Basta masaya ka, doon lang ako.

'Nga pala, natutunan ko na ding kontrolin yung nararamdaman ko. Kaya wag ka mag-alala, sa susunod na magkasalubong tayo, chill na 'ko. :)

Awesoooooooooooooooooome :)

Labo moments.

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wala lang gusto ko lang sabihin. :))

Wont write something BV tonight.

Goodevening M.


 You really don't have to control yourself with what you want to say. 'Coz your writing now in English, and that stalker slash hater will find a hard time understanding this. HAHAHA


So yeah, it's funny how some people can look like they're oh-so-kind-and-innocent, when in fact, they're the one who's really bitching around. I won't elucidate this any further, coz it will be huge waste of space and effort if I were to write about them. I'll probably write some time later, when I am feeling well. I need happy pills now, I don't need anonymous people who can't even introduce themselves before talking shit with me. I don't need losers who hide their spinelessness in that little "ask anonymously" button.






Again.






Goodevening M.




Maintaining grace under pressure.
Self-respect.
Being prompt.
Focusing on the given task.
Prioritizing.
Giving your best at every task, no matter how humiliating it can be.
Smiling after the storm.


Basically, that's what I learned today.
I still have five days, I hope to learn more.


As what the name says.. Brida :)
And as what the color implies.. Gold :) Undergoing a complicated process before finally glimmering and shining. <3




As much as I wanted to write something long, I can't.. Only for now. Hum1 and Eng2 papers are waiting beside me. Yeyy! :)




Goodnight whoever you are. :)

Healthy ba ang ampalaya sa umaga?

Goodmorning M.

Chill ka lang, ha?

Wala siyang kwenta. Wag mag paapekto.

Mag focus ka sa mga mahahalagang bagay.

Brida <3